It’s not a matter of if we fall, it’s a matter of when. What happens? How do we feel? How does it impact where we are in the moment and where we are going? Does it set us back? Or, does it fuel our purpose and give us a stronger reason to push forward? Do we let it define us, or do we dig deep and find a lesson so that we can move on as a wiser and stronger version of ourselves?
I can honestly admit that I’ve done both! As I sit here and reflect, I started this blog well over two years ago. . . . I wasn’t entirely certain of where it would lead, but I was willing to start by taking one small step at a time and I was committed to figuring it out along the way. Well, that was the story I told myself at the time. It turns out that “along the way” I encountered several challenges and obstacles and I wasn’t exactly graceful and nimble at navigating them to maintain any forward momentum. In fact, I fell down . . . . . . more times than I care to count. I went through the motions and attempted to dust myself off and pick up the pieces, but it seemed to get harder and harder and then there were a few times when it felt like staying down and waiting it all out seemed like the best option available. It didn’t feel like I had anything great to share, so it became easier not to. After all, this blog was something that was optional, it wasn’t a work requirement or assignment and it didn’t have any tangible outcomes or income tied to it, so it was easy to step away from.
Now that I look back, I find one of the most intriguing aspects is that I never took the time to pull the plug on it. I never cancelled the domain, or even went back and deleted the published posts, intro, etc. It’s as if there was something unfinished just waiting for me to get it together . . . . .So, here I am! I’m back to pick it up and figure it out. I’m setting aside all of the doubts and fears that I have that are telling me that it’s easier to let it go than to face all of the questions and uncertainties that arise: What’s next? Where is this going? What purpose will it serve? Why does it matter? I like to have the answers. I like to have it all figured out. I’m not thrilled with uncertainty and I shy away from commitments when I don’t have a clear path mapped out. So, why commit? Why step back into this journey? And, better yet, why now? It surprises me and humbles me to share that I’m not sure, I don’t have the answers. What I do have is a vision . . . I have a vision of sharing my experiences and helping to support others. Life is complicated, plans don’t always go as planned, challenges arise and we can overcome some and others seemingly overcome us. We are given endless opportunities to decide what’s next. So, here is to a renewed commitment to figuring it out along the way! It’s easy to get lost in the challenges and setbacks, it’s painful to pick up and resurrect where we may have left off. But, there is beauty and joy to be found in the process, so I will be looking to embrace it all as I begin to set my goals and define my path . . . . One Step at a Time!